guess what i found out today? I'm a whore! Sandra hates me. Josh hates me. Karly hates me. isnt this great? now im friendless. this is so fucking awesome. Nothing better in life except being emo.

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I'm being chased, being pursued by the end,
I fight off the chance of being captured again,
For me there is no hope,
Just waiting for you to tie my rope,
You have stalked me day by day,
You've raped me and I waste away,
I scream bloody Hell,
When I know I won't get well,
You've locked me in a cage,
My mind is tourmented by rage,
You ignore me though I bleed,
You've ignored my every plead,
I guess I will be captured again,
And still be pursued and chased by the end.

Currently Reading The Vampire Armand : The Vampire Chronicles (Rice, Anne, Vampire Chronicles) By Anne Rice see related

My dad is always telling me that I'll never amount to anything, and I always wonder: is it true? I think it is, most people tell me that I'm smart and intelligent, but those people are friends and family, except my dad. So I have no clue if those were all just lies, or not. I'd give anything to just have someone tell me the truth and I would be able to trust them and know it was true. I have a counsiler that's old as dirt because I slit my wrists, I still cut though. That old shitbag laughs about me cutting, but he'll get his one day. I have olsers almost everyday and he laughs about that, asshole. My friend, Sandra, gives me better advice than he does, and she's only a year older than me. She helps me to see that I can be someone, but she says I'm blind to the fact that it's true. I don't really want friends, I don't need them, I just want to be alone. Sandra's my only friend, I don't know if she considers me her friend, though. Maybe. I don't really know. If she doesn't it won't hurt my feelings.

Come as you are, as you were,
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy.
Take your time, hurry up
The choice is yours, don't be late.
Take a rest, as a friend, as an old memory
memory, memory, memory

Come doused in mud, soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend, as a friend, as an old memory
memory, memory, memory

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun, No I don't have a gun

iiiaaa

memory, memory, memory, memory (don't have a gun)

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun (x4)
memory memory

<I Love this song>

I’m so happy ’cause today
I’ve found my friends ...
They’re in my head
I’m so ugly, but that’s okay, ’cause so are you ...
We’ve broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care ...
And I’m not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
’cause I’ve found god
Yeah (x6)

I’m so lonely but that’s okay, I shaved my head ...
And I’m not sad
And just maybe I’m to blame for all I’ve heard ...
But I’m not sure
I’m so excited, I can’t wait to meet you there ...
But I don’t care
I’m so horny, but that’s okay ...
My will is good
Yeah(x6)

(x2)
I like it - I’m not gonna crack
I miss you - I’m not gonna crack
I love you - I’m not gonna crack
I killed you - I’m not gonna crack

I’m so happy ’cause today
I’ve found my friends ...
They’re in my head
I’m so ugly, but that’s okay, ’cause so are you ...
We’ve broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care ...
And I’m not scared
Light my candles in a daze ...
’cause I’ve found god
Yeah, yeah, yeah(x2)

(x2)
I like it - I’m not gonna crack
I miss you - I’m not gonna crack
I love you - I’m not gonna crack
I killed you - I’m not gonna crack
<I love this song also>